It’s hard to find the incentive to write when your brain feels like it’s been wrapped around a Twinkie, dipped in Coke, and deep fat fried.
I just sat and stared at that sentence for five minutes.
I also might have drooled a little.
It’s been that hot. And when I say hot, I’m not kidding around. I grew up in the South. I know what it feels like to step outside and feel like you just inhaled an entire bag of hot, wet cotton. A few years ago, shortly after moving to the Midwest, I was scoffing at co-workers who were standing around outside on their smoke breaks complaining about how muggy the twenty percent humidity was making things.
That’s like dipping your toe in a pool and then bitching about getting soaked. It’s not muggy. It’s maybe, kinda, sorta…moist.
But this summer…
This summer I could swear weather gnomes are fucking with me, dragging the southern temperatures over here when I’m not paying attention. It’s been bad. It’s been hot. No… it’s been REALLY FUCKING HOT.
I take the puppy outside to do her thing, and while I’m waiting for her to sniff out the perfect spot in the yard to crap on, and then the second most perfect spot to finish off the crap, my face melts into a bubbling pile of glop, which proceeds to sizzle away on the deck. I feel like I’ve sweat the equivalent of a small child off of my body weight, but to add insult to misery, all the heat is doing is causing me to retain water and bloat. So I weigh more.
It’s also been too hot to boot the children outside to play, which means my sanity has been pushed to the very edge of its limitations. They start school on Monday. One of them is going into kindergarten and if I cry, it’s only because I’m relieved. I eyeball the baby on a regular basis, and calculate just how much longer before we can start shoving his ass on a bus every morning. I start to feel a little guilty for fantasizing about getting rid of all of the children. Then the eldest slams her bedroom door in the middle child’s face, the middle child shrieks and cries for being abandoned, and the baby reaches into his diaper and uses the contents to perfect his sculpting ability.
The guilt fades away pretty fast.
It’s too damn hot to feel guilty.